Tergamam: Keras Kejung kat Sini

ohoiiii blog, 

abang  pergi jenguk blog dia. nahhhh rasakan. yang di bold kan merah were Gucci, Marc Jacobs, iPad 1, 2 dan 3 kucing berlari. tu belum masuk pergi hong kong, belgium, paris lah mana mana lagi tempat yang abang hanya mampu sebut tapi tak mampu pergi. 

hah kan dah cakap abang suka yang biasa biasa jer. do you reckon i can provide all those things ker? sendiri nak makan pun macam tersedak. esok abang ada interview. bukan tak positive dengan diri sendiri tapi i know myself and my family better than anyone else. we belong to two different worlds. while i can only window shop at KLCC/Pavilion, she can bag things that she sees through the windows. 

i was excited but that was before i seriously read the blog. whatever written in the blog normally portrays 10% of one's life. jadi rasanya adalah elok abang bertaubat dan bawak bawak bertendang eh silap bawak bawak bertenang jangan mengelinjang berlebihan. 

whatever the outcome of the interview (i think i knew what to expect), it is definitely my kekurangan. hidup nih macam karma i know where i am throwing myself into. rejection and acceptance are norms in life but the former is hard to handle. worry not i have gone through many rejections before and trust me semua orang ingat abang nih boleh dapat siapa yang abang nak kan? ha ha ha. teruk la korang nih. 

okaylah, to live with no expectation is to live with no frustration but living with no determination. i will present myself as myself and not to impress anyone. kalau the sister rasa tak sesuai i think she makes a wise decision!! seriously now i am doubting myself (well not for the first time la dol. banyak kali dah kalau tak takkan la lepas setahun baru nak make my move. itu pun akakmerah yang tolong. kalau tak, keras kejung la aku kat sini melayan perasaan perasan). ha ha ha. okeh i should get back to my business. but if you read this, dear cik maniews, i cannot afford gucci, coach, hong kong, belgium for your birthday tau. the most i can spend is mee goreng mamak dan senyuman manis jer. :-) 

signing off for a while before sambung mencarut bila bosan dengan metikmetik. heh dah setahun la kan tak jumpa muaz... dah besar dah agaknya adikburung tuh?? ~sigh sigh sigh~

-perAYIEsan-